Happy Day

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Sirius waited for Felix' reply, then he replied himself. Well I'm sure it did.

[/colour] Sirius said. He had said it, maybe because the first year was a Slytherin, more possibly because he didn't kow if the Slytherin was a boy or girl.

Don't you cause any havoc of your own?[/colour] Sirius asked, looking over at him, covering his eyes from the sun with his hand. Everyone caused trouble sometimes, so Sirius was sure that Felix had to caause some once in a while. But then again, you got your goody-goods in Ravenclaw - though Sirius knew not all were, Carson for example wasn't all goody-good, as they had been sent to detention together.
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Felix heard Sirius refer to the Slytherin as an it. He could've accused the remark as house discrimination... but on the other hand, maybe he didn't know the gender. Then Sirius asked Felix if he had ever caused any havoc of his own. "I actually haven't. I'm not very well known for pranking... Come to think of it, I'm not very well known at all. All I'm known for is being an outcase Slytherin. But I don't like to cause trouble. I don't like bullying... It's a really, really... really long story, one I'd rather not go through. Sorry."

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[blockqoute]Sirius had been given a whole rundown pretty mcuh as to why Felix had never caused any havoc without even asking. Alright, he wouldn't ask. He was asked not to, so he wouldn't. However, it was any other Slytherin, he would indeed.

But you do know that you don't have to bully to do something out of the rules, right? Other than leaving the school due to your 'problems'.[/colour] Sirius said as he heard a group walk past them, behind Sirius.
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Felix listened to Sirius and he sighed softly. "I guess that's true... Well... I've just never thought of any havoc to cause... Guess I'm a good student." He sighed... then grimaced. "I've been sighing ever since we ran into each other, haven't I? I'm sorry. It must be annoying, isn't it?" Felix felt bad. He was hiding most of his life from the one he had a crush on just because he was afraid of what the other would think. "I've been hiding too much stuff from you... I kinda feel stupid for it."

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[There's nothing wrong with that...

[/colour] Sirius said, though it probably didn't count for much coming from him.

Then Felix said that he;d been sighing the whole time, and asked if it was annoying. Well slightly, but it was a lot better than hearing Peter's squeals of excitement every two seconds. Well, if you continue to do so, I'll say yes, but you can't be more annoying than Peter's excited squeals, so don't worry about it.[/colour] Sirius said, smiling at him.

Then he said he was hiding too much from him. Did that mean he was going to tell him what he was hiding, or just saying that he was hiding too much and continue to hide stuff? Well everyone has their own times to tell someone something, so I'm sure you'll come to tell me sometime, so you don't have to worry about it too much.[/colour] Sirius said.
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((Felix's blabbering side XD))

Sirius said that there was nothing wrong with him being a good student and Felix smiled softly. "Thanks... I'm glad you see it like that," he said. Then Sirius admitted that if Felix kept sighing, it would be... but it wasn't as bad as Peter's squeals. And then Felix heard Sirius explain that Felix would have a time to say something and Felix sighed as he suddenly began speaking. "I don't know. I've been keeping everything hidden from all my friends for four years and I feel horrible for it. But how do you tell someone you're gay anyway? It's just..." Felix's eyes widened as he realized he just began blabbering out of nowhere and... just... told... Sirius... he... is... gay... ... ... "OH...!" Felix covered his mouth and dropped the f-bomb into it as he fell to the ground.

(XD Lol)

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Sirius saw Felix smile at him, and heard him say thanks, that he was happy that he didn't see being a good student as a bad thing. Well it was true. Sirius didn't find much of a problem with good students, just as long as they knew how to have a good time once in a while, that was all.

Sirius was then told that Felix had been keeping everything hidden from all of his friends for about four years and he felt horrible for it. yeah, someone might. Why couldn't you just tell your friends how you felt? Well, Sirius told James and Remus, and well peter because he was always there, everything. But he couldn't say a word, because Felix had continued, and asked how you tell someone you're gay. Sirius had sat bol upright now, as Felix pretty much shouted Oh!, covered his mouth, swore and fell onto the ground.

Okay, Sirius had never been put in this situation before. But it made sense, why he kept blushing, why he couldn't say who his eyes had fallen upon. But, Sirius couldn't say anythign. He didn't know what to say. He didn't hate gay people, well then again, he never knew any...

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Kill me... Kill me now... Kill me now and make it painless, Felix begged in his head. His heart had begun pounding so hard in his chest that he felt he could've died at any moment now. he made the ultimate mistake... He told his crush... how he felt... and what he was. The world began spinning and he could've sworn he saw spots... Was that a leprachaun doing his little dance with a pot of Galleons behind Sirius? He felt like stabbing himself with his wand and then striking his heart with an Avada Kedavra spell. But he didn't. All he could do was lay there, curled in a ball, watching as his world began to crumble and his life begin to end... ending figuratively, not literally, of course.

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Sirius sat there, as Felix probably felt like dying, killing himself. But, Sirius was speechless, and so could only do, well nothing! So, he decided to just lay back down, stare at the sun for a bit, and then mabey that would get him somewhere.

He was just hoping that Felix wouldn't do anything stupid in the meanwhile.

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Felix wasn't stupid, nor was he desperate. Yes, he was depressed... emo... sad... down in the dumps... feeling the blues... any possible simile or synonym for sadness, that is what Felix felt, but he has never cut himself or attempted suicide. Even though life gave him Hell, he tried to survive. The only thing that could cause him to kill himself... or attempt to kill himself... is if Sirius told Felix that he hated him. That would do it for him.

(*coughstaytunedforluciferattemptingtokillfelixcough*)

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Sirius was regaining himself, after a while of staring into the bright sun, and then closing his eyes. Yes, it explained a lot of things: why Felix was blushing, why he kept turning away, why he wouldn't tell him who he was crushing on, why he playfully pushed Sirius, why he was an outcast Slytherin. But, it didn't change too much. Felix was still a person, a person Sirius was alright with, so why should that change things?

Sirius turned his head towards Felix, keeping his eyes closed, and asked, Who is it that's caught your eye?

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Felix noted as the world stopped spinning that Sirius had not left. The world did not end... Felix was not dead or friendless. Sirius had chosen to stay? Did that mean he felt the same... or was he simply ok with what Felix was? Then Sirius asked again who had caught Felix's eyes. Maybe he already knew, but he wanted Felix to tell him. Felix sighed, trying hard not to cry as he answered in a soft voice. "... A boy... in the House of Gryffindor... He's in his fifth year..." His voice almost cracked as he spoke the last sentence. "And he goes by the name of Sirius Black." There it was, out in the open. After four years, Felix had finally managed to admit his feelings.

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Sirius waited for Felix's answer. Maybe he thought Sirius might know already, maybe he dind't. But either way, Sirius had asked because he wanted to know now, not because he wanted to confirm anything.

Sirius had turned back over onto his back just before Felix began to speak. He listened to him talk, saying it was a boy - obviosuly, that he was in Gryffindor - alright, that he was a fifth year - okay...Then Felix's voice cracked as he said the last part. He went by the name Sirius Black - okay. Wait, that was him! So Felix was crushing on him? Why? He didn't see himself as all that, unlike James at times.

So, Sirius just took a deep breath, stopping himself from saying anything he might regret later. Sirius then took one last deep breath, opened his eyes, looked at Felix, and said one word. Okay.

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Felix listened for any comments, insults, angry remarks, anything that would kill him... All he got was a simple ok. Felix suddenly did have silent tears streaming down his face. How could everything go so wrong? "I'm... I'm sorry... I must look like such a freak now... Here I am, some stupid outcast, admitting I have a crush on one of the coolest guys in Hogwarts... And straight too... I'm such an idiot."

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Sirius saw Felix crying now. Sirius felt like a jerk, because he felt like he almost made him cry. What on earth was going on? Felix then said that he was sorry and that he must look like such a freak now and that here he was, an outcast, and he just admitted that he had a crush on one of the coolest guys in Hogwarts and straight too, and that he was such an idiot. Sirius just laid there, looking at him. If he was in his right mind, he may have said something not as great, but he was trying to be above his right mind.

Look, you aren't the first to have a crush on me, though I should probably state that those that do are usually girls, but you'll live. I'm sure you're going to be fine. And I'm not going to run off any second soon, I'm going to stay here, and lay here. And we can talk about whatever else if you want.

[/colour] Sirius said, telling Felix it was koay, and that Sirius wasn't going to go anywhere - no matter how confused he was about this, but he was being honest, and that they could go on talking again like before. However, it was up to Felix whether or not he left, whether this was enough embarrasment for him to take.
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